Life In 19x19

I suddenly realize I have no way to prevent white from playing at my hidden move if I try to play on the left. I'll leave it for now in case he tries to patch up left in a weird way (probably not going to, though). I expect capture here, then I'll go back and play C7. At that point white will know what my hidden move is, but I don't think I have much choice.

I think I'm pretty close to hopelessly behind - especially since white still has his hidden move, but I'll play on for a bit.

White will probably discover my hidden move next, but I think after I separate I can get that plus point in sente later and also attack upper left. This means that on board it looks playable. The issue, of course, is that white still has the hidden move XD

I have to separate white if I want to get to play around E10 in sente.

Looks like I'll be forced to take a minus point:

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[go]$$Wcm1
$$ +-----------------------+
$$ | . . . . . p . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . m W . . . . m B . |
$$ | . . W . . . . B B W . |
$$ | . . B W . B . . W . W |
$$ | p 4 B X . B . . . W p |
$$ | . B W W . B . . . . . |
$$ | 3 1 B W . . . . W . . |
$$ | . 2 5 W . B . W m . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . p . . . . . |
$$ +-----------------------+[/go]

This also could hurt my top side, but fortunately I still have my hidden move, which should help me live if need be.

I considered playing around top left first, but this seems so big (especially because I can later force white to play on the minus point).

That move is a bit surprising to me. Now, he can peep as below and eventually force me to fill the negative space, but my descent at may at least be profitable in exchange.

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[go]$$Bcm1 Score - B:41, W:26
$$ +-----------------------+
$$ | . . . . . p . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . m W . . . . m B . |
$$ | . . W . . . . B B W . |
$$ | . . B W . B . . W . W |
$$ | B . B B . B . . . W p |
$$ | . B W W . B . . . . . |
$$ | . W B W . . . . W . . |
$$ | . W 4 W . B . W m . . |
$$ | . 3 1 2 . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . p . . . . . |
$$ +-----------------------+[/go]

Game looking less hopeless, but I think I still need to either surround top right comfortably + get a plus point so that the remaining two becomes miai-ish or force a play on at least one of the minus points on the left side to stand a chance.

I feel slightly in trouble, but I think I'll be okay.