I'm Glad to Be Back, or Losing is Everything in Go(Oh dear, he's using the big font size again. And he has two titles for this post. This aught to be good...
)I have been having trouble enjoying go this semester. It is not that go has changed, but my position in go has become rather stable. Neither of the 2 kyu players that have come to the West Michigan Go Club in the past have made an appearance since my last post. A member of the Grand Valley Club has stopped attending because of work commitments. Another member has fallen down to 5 or 6 stones against me (from 3). And members at the West Michigan club need at least 4 stones to beat me. As far as I know, I'm now the best player in the Grand Rapids area. And it has been difficult to put up with the monotony.
(You make winning games sound like a prison sentence...
)Playing online would, of course, be a good way to face stronger players. After all, there are no end to the strong players available on the KGS, IGS, Tygem, OGS, etc. and yet I don't find the same enjoyment in playing online. Sitting across from my opponent, lightly chatting as we play through the game, that is relaxing and enjoyable. After the game, we always review, and we can always play one more. Playing online, I usually can't even find an opponent who will stop after the game to review.
It has been quite a while since I had a solid rank on the KGS. I've been very busy with classes and, honestly, have put go on the back burner. So why do I now have a rank again? My recent motivation has come from an unlikely source.
(Your misguided idea that you can reach the dan level?
)A new player joined our university club this semester. He had just learned how to play when he showed up in January. Since then, he has quickly advanced past a couple of our clubs weaker members. Yesterday, though, he gave me quite a scare. I lost to him twice when giving him 8 and 9 stones.
(Don't add caveats. A loss is a loss!
)
My goal for the semester was to keep my playing ability strong enough that he wouldn't beat me at 9 stones. Yet at 9 I was forced to resign. At 8, he won by a single point. It was wonderful to see how far he has come, but disheartening for me. I have not been getting better.
Yes, I still do the daily tsumego problems on my phone. Sure, I play at my go clubs. But I haven't had the vigor to actually put real effort into studies. It has just been monotonous. Until now.
Even though this player is at least 8 stones weaker, I find his determination exhilarating. It reminds me of when I was at my peak of improvement in go a few years ago. I would gain a rank a month during my most intense periods of study. I'm not sure I've gained even one rank in the last year. But now I have a moving target again. Someone who, if left unchecked, could pass me by in a year. I will not let that happen.
(Translation: It's just a matter of time before he loses an even game to this player.
)Yet getting back online has not been easy. Because I play exclusively handicap games as white in my club games, I'm finding it easy to get overly aggressive and count on my opponents making mistakes in online games as well. This doesn't work against players of equal skill.
(No duh.
) So I'm going to need to work my way back toward my older, more solid style of play. In the spirit of moving back toward solid play, I've decided to go back to my roots with the Low Chinese opening. Hopefully it will bring me back into a calmer mindset.
Here are my two most recent KGS games. In both I play the Low Chinese and in both I win by resignation following the death of a white group in the bottom right. Any thoughts or comments are always appreciated.
I really like this first game. Up until move 19 we are both playing textbook Low Chinese. The position at move 18 is right in Kato Masao's book. I'm not sure about white's direction of play with his joseki to 26, but I don't think the choice is out of the question. Actually, I like all of our moves until white invades the top. I think it was a bit too soon to give me that much strength in the area, but perhaps I'm wrong.
http://files.gokgs.com/games/2015/4/3/Xam-moyoaji.sgf
This game was intense. My opponent made some mistakes in the upper left joseki, but otherwise played very strongly. I was quite concerned following white's cut into my framework until I figured out the life and death of my group in the bottom right.
http://files.gokgs.com/games/2015/4/4/L234-moyoaji.sgf