I call it "the fog". Due to circumstances, not having a lot of time etc., so far these three months I've accustomed to not playing that much, only about 1-3 times a week. I do have more time to study problems, read books, review games and so on, so I've been doing that quite a lot all this time. As a result, when I play, I always play a little differently and never quite sure of what to do, because in between games I've always learnt something new but haven't gotten used to the information in the actual games. I do win most of the games though, but thats probably because the KGS rank hangs behind me.
When I came aware of this, I continued sticking with it because, I don't know if I'm right or wrong, but I'm hoping this way I will not create so many bad habits and not focus too much on winning games with old tricks but trying to understand the lessons I've studied in between.
However, on the other side of the blade I'm always quite scared to go and play for some reason if I'm not feeling too good, perhaps it's because I don't have a good trust or feel for my current skills. For example now, I could be playing but I'm here writing this and going off to review some dan games.
So I was wondering, if I continue doing this will I ultimately become so scared of playing I won't and drop go or something? Should I just loosen up and play more? Or is this a completely normal or even a seemingly better way to learn Go?
I understand everyone is different and there are no definite answers but I'd just like to get some discussion on the topic.
I know one friend of mine who is very good at fighting for he plays much and studies little and got to SDK with that, but I don't think he can understand the other aspects of go very well and as a result will probably stuck there forever unless he breaks his game. I wouldn't wanna end up there.