ihatego wrote:Hi there I just wanted to register so I could confess that Go is hard too hard for me.
Nonsense

I've been playing for only a bit over a year now, maybe 1.5 years. Don't know exactly. I started out with playing against GNU Go on my tablet, and got smashed into the ground in the beginning. I switched to the program "Go" from AI Factory, which used the Aya engine. Much weaker than GNU Go, but I still got smashed. So, I started taking a four or five stone handicap (and no komi) against Go/Aya level 1.
From there, I started to work my way up, reducing the handicap, and moving to level 2 when I was able to beat Go/Aya 8 times out of ten when GIVING it 2 stones of handicap.
So I moved through Aya's 10 levels, and then started again on GNU Go level 1, which is stronger than Go/Aya on level 10+2 stones. I did the same there, and I recently made such a big jump in strength that I became strong enough to now regularly beat GNU Go at level 10 in an even game (>= 50% win rate). Sometimes I even get it to resign.
So, now I'm *giving* it one or two stones, and start to play stronger engines, again *taking* a handicap.
Try to find several different engines, so as to avoid to 'abuse' an engine, winning by abusing its weaknesses, rather than by becoming stronger yourself. I you improve one stone against one engine, you should have improved one stone against ALL the engines. So for example, if you play at 3 stones against Aya, and 6 stones against GNU Go, and you improve one stone against Aya so you can now play at 2 stones, you SHOULD be able to play against GNU Go by taking 5 stones. You don't need to use a lot of different programs; you can also register at KGS, where you can start playing engines as low as 20k, taking a handicap if necessary.
I've destroyed a laptop and a tablet in fits of pique after losing groups or games. I don't think I have the right temperament for this game. I'm angry and sad and I think I will just stop playing. >_<
While I never have destroyed hardware, I do know what you mean by the angry and sad thing. I have had good games that I lost by just overlooking an atari on a big group, or by misjudging a sequence and losing a capturing race by one liberty.
That does create the "RAAAAAARGGGGGHH, I'll NEVER PLAY THIS GAME AGAIN!!!!" moments.
Of course, people don't want to lose all the time. Even if you are improving, it can be many weeks or months until you are strong enough to win your first game on even. In the beginning, I refused to take handicap stones. I felt too good for it. But then I realized: if I don't, I can't see my own improvement.
Thus, I found the weakest engine (Go/Aya, at that time, on the tablet), set it to the lowest level, and took 4 or 5 stones handicap.
Suddenly, it was a mere days before I won my first game by 1.5 points or so. And then by 6.5 points. And then 10.5. Obviously I also lost some. And so on and on, until I started winning games one after another by 20+ points. Thus, I reduced the handicap by one stone. Thus, I started losing more, and winning with less margin again, but I could SEE a one stone improvement.
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Note: my version of Go/Aya on Android has recently been upgraded and it's now called Go+. It now contains a MUCH stronger, multithreaded engine. I haven't played a full game yet, as it takes too long to move on my old tablet, but I wouldn't be surprised if it's now stronger than GNU Go on the same tablet.
The description says this:
This new version has been 3 years in preparation and improves the top play strength by 10 grades from 8 kyu to 3 dan. This is based on the new Aya program, which was the winner of the KGS World Computer Go Championship November 2014 and EGC Computer Go Tournament 2015.
8 kyu on level 10 for the old Aya is a bit optimistic. As GoDroid (GNU Go) plays between 5-8 kyu, and is measurably stronger at level 1 than Aya at level 10+2 stones, I would put the old Aya at level 10 at 12 kyu or so. However, it does seem that AI Factory has switched over to the new Monte Carlo version of the Aya engine, which brings it more in line with something like Pachi or Fuego. This would make a VERY strong program, even on a tablet, and it wouldn't be advised to start out with this anymore.