Kirby wrote:[I'm not that easily embarrassed by go these days.. though, when I invest more time into studying, I feel more pressure and embarrassment from the mistakes.
Gosh, you sound almost human! What you are experiencing is what everybody experiences when they try and fail - why, i have even thrown my 5-iron 30 yards, whereupon it landed at an awkward angle and bent its shaft into 90 degrees.
Zen teachers say the way to Enlightenment is not to study, but to empty your mind, so you can come to know yourself, to learn to go with the flow of Nature.
There is a flow to a Go game too, but as it is not the consequence of beautiful natural laws of cause and effect, but the creation of the interference of the psychopath Berserker sitting opposite you flailing about, the flow of a real-life Go game is as Brownian as pollen dancing in the breeze, so Zen is no help at all.
So, unless you become enlightened enough to see the Truth that Go is a complete waste of time, you have no choice but to bow your head 5 times a day and follow the prophet
Alfie (Peace be Upon Her) and read, read, read, read.
Alfie has been to the mountaintop, and She has seen the glory of the cunning Go-ing of the Lord, and it is written that it doesn't matter whether you can understand what you read, just so long as you read all the way to the end and back again a few gerzillion times.
That's not too much to ask, is it?
