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I read her "1 point means everything to me" as "will not give away 1 point, no matter how much is the increase in thinking time".
Even if you read it correctly, it may not be right in the first place - self-delusions can creep in.
I say this on the basis of a long career in journalism where most news journalists, already under deadline pressure, invariably chose to leave writing the story until the very last minutes. We felt that this way we worked better. Quite possibly we did - one rational explanation is that the longer you delay, the more of a moving story you can incorporate. The intense focus you need also enables you to omit extraneous details, which is almost always good for a news story. You type faster. Above all, you feel r e a l l y good at the end of it. I have no recollection of anyone ever missing a deadline. You had to have your rush.
On occasions we'd be called on to write a feature or opinion piece, with much more time and no special deadline. That was purgatory. We'd be listless, and that would manifest itself by pecking away at the typewriter instead of pounding it. And many missed deadlines would occur.
I read years later that what is going is that, with a looming deadline, your reaction to it causes a pleasurable spike in noradrenaline in the brain, to which you can become mildly addicted. We all know of thrill seekers. The big difference in front-line journalism is that we have behind us an army of editors and sub-editors who catch our mistakes.
But mistakes do occur. One I still cringe at (but only mildly) is when, writing at very high speed a breaking story at a trade conference in Uruguay, I realised I couldn't remember the first name of the Uruguayan trade minister. I shouted out to the newsroom, "What's Iglesias's first name?" and got the instant reply "Julio" and that's what went into my story - instead of Enrique. I still finished on the usual high, which incidentally doesn't feel like a sugar rush - it's more like an icy calm at the time, and the pleasure comes afterwards. By which time your mistakes are in the safely forgotten past. The reason I remember that incident particularly is not because I made a mistake - I'm sure I made many and never bothered noticing. It was because on that one occasion the night sub-editor didn't catch my mistake and I was serenaded on my return. (For the teeny-boppers, Julio Iglesias was a big singing star of the time.)
I now know that chess blitz players experience a similar noradrenaline high, so it seems likely that go players do, too. They of course do not have anyone in reserve to catch their mistakes, but I would speculate that that makes their rush even more intense and thus even more pleasurable, closer to what the extreme-sports dare-devils must feel.
When you get used to that feeling, as blitz players must because of the sheer number of games they play (and you can play more in any given time), I can easily imagine, from my own experience, how wearisome extra time can feel.
I am therefore positing that go players who prefer to rush than dawdle may not be truly aware of either their mistakes or the size of them. And I further posit that they do make such mistakes.