CSamurai wrote:But what good is playing more games, when I'm not going to get any better?
Have you asked yourself whether being better has to be the point or not?
I've spent most of my pre-21 life as an avid gamer, from roguelikes to strategies to FPS to RPGs, and I liked the fact that I was pretty good at any of them I turned my hand to. However, I've always been lazy, and no matter how good I got at anything, there were always people out there better. I don't mean I could only win head to head 40% of the time, I mean _really_ better, like beat me 99% of the time. These people had the natural skillsets (hand-eye co-ord, reflexes, quick thinking under pressure) the learned skillsets (mouse sensitivity attunement, how to hide, shortcut keys) and dedicated X hours a day to getting really damn good.
I started asking myself "why do I want to compete with these people?". The only answer I had was "to be better than them", but then there are more people out there even better again, and eventually that target is the IQ 160 sporty mental gymnast that has dedicated 10 hours a day to _that specific game_ for the last 8 years, and you reach that point where you realise you will never be better. If your only goal is to be better than the people you are up against until there's no-one left to beat, you will fail, you will be frustrated, and you will keep returning to "what's the point". I've realised that, for me personally, trying to constantly win and overtake my opposition is frustrating, and ultimately pointless. If I was the world's best Civ V player, or WoW Warlock, or whatever (excluding professionally played FPS and RTS games), no-one that I really care about would be very interested. I would have offered nothing productive to society other than being good at a video game, and my personal pride in my achievement would be tainted by that constant question "so what?".
So, I play to enjoy games. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose. Sometimes I play to learn, and find learning enjoyable too. Go fits in for me because it's good brain exercise, it's social, it teaches me to approach anything I think I know with the attitude of "Ok, maybe I don't know" - and this reflects positively on the rest of my life - and, for the most part, it is relaxing. I play the MMO Lord of the Rings Online sometimes when I can squeeze in some time, and that's nice too. It's relaxing, I play with a few online friends and we chat about babies and work and the latest news, or maybe crack bad puns for cheap laughs, and I leave feeling that I had fun. I don't particularly care that my main character is still only level 33 and I may never hit the level cap, because I don't play to grind my way to the top for 1337 skillz pride. If the game didn't help me relax, or I didn't enjoy chatting to the people I know on there, I'd do something else. I'm pretty good with numbers, patterns, and logic, and I could write a spreadsheet that enables me to fine-tune my DPS / against damage received and be 5-10% more effective within the game, but again I'm left with the feeling that it's all rather pointless, so I don't, I just enjoy playing instead.
If you want to be a professional gamer, you have the right attitude. Play, sweat, bleed the game until you are _really_ good. If that's how you want to earn your living, go do it, you'll provide a bunch of other people with entertainment making it reasonably valuable societally, and you can put bread on the table doing things you have a natural aptitude and desire to do - a dream most people never achieve. If you don't want to be one, or think you can't be one, maybe stop expecting so much of yourself? Play to enjoy, or do something else to enjoy?