balmung wrote:The problem is and will be for a while(So I have been told from stronger players who watch me play and review my games) I have a problem of playing instinct and very fast when there is no need to on kgs. My friends tell me the only thing keeping me from zooming through the sdk is playing more meaningful games. My last 15+ games on kgs have been meaningless I have either played to fast or didn't stop and think. It haunts me because the next day after a game I will be somewhere thinking about a position from it in which I didn't think, and then I will read out the correct solution right then. This is why I don't play online at all and why my rank stays between 10-7 kyu. I hate playing fast and from the adrenaline rush I get from playing ranked games, and I haven't found away to break because now it's more than a habit, playing fast when there is no need to is now close to an addiction.
I completely understand - this has happened to me too. One piece of advice I've found helpful: for every single turn (no exceptions) consider at least two moves. I think Yang Yilun said this. It looks like part of your frustration stems from your focus on what happens to your rank.
Joaz - I don't think we mean the same thing when we say humility. You should, of course, play boldly when warranted and attack where you are strong.