Gotraskhalana wrote:... I messed up a corner because I tried to remember a joseki...
There is a proverb among go players that says "Learning joseki loses two stones strength". My personal phrasing of this is "Blindly memorizing joseki loses two stones strength".
The second - and less widely known - part of the proverb is "Understanding joseki gains four stones strength".
Sensei's library has more on this idea:
http://senseis.xmp.net/?LearningJosekiL ... esStrengthWith this concept in mind, let's look at the joseki that you played.
With your first move, you are saying "I want the corner, with maybe a little possibility of outside influence."
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( If you wanted an ironclad grip on the corner, you would have played the 3-3 point at 'a'. )
With his reply, white says "OK, you can have the corner, I'll settle for outside influence".
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With your next move, you are telling white "No! You can't have easy outside influence. I'm going to go outside of you, and I'm also going to deprive you of eye space." This is a confrontational move.
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[go]$$W
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$$-....a.B..
$$-..X,O....
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$$-...b.....
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( You could have repeated your claim to corner territory with 'a', or you could have played a peaceful move like 'b', going for some territory in the corner and the possibilities of both influence and territory on the left side. Both are solid, time-tested joseki. )
White now gets into the spirit of the moment, being just as confrontational. "You wanna play tough guy? OK, if I can't have easy influence, you can't have easy territory".
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[go]$$W
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( White could have played more peacefully at 'a', which is another joseki )
Your next move is again very confrontational. "No, you can't have influence, and you can't have my corner either. I'll cut you apart! You are going to die!!"
$$W
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$$-.aOB..X..
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[go]$$W
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$$-.aOB..X..
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$$-.........[/go]
( A safe play at 'a' is also joseki )
White has no choice. He must cut. You both are now caught in the current of your own making.
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[go]$$W
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$$-..OX.X..
$$-..XWO....
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$$-.........[/go]
You have no choice but to extend. All of this macho posturing has resulted in a situation in which nobody can back down.
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$$-..OXB.X..
$$-..XOO....
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[go]$$W
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$$-..OXB.X..
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$$-.........[/go]
White says "You like cuts? Here, suck on this!" White needs to play this so that C18 is sente. White can't do anything less aggressive, or black gets ahead.
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$$-..XOO....
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[go]$$W
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$$-..OXXWX..
$$-..XOO....
$$-..a......
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( White can also play 'a'. FWIW, I followed Bill's advice and played around with this joseki. It turns out that he must eventually do both. Which comes first hardly matters, I think )
Again, you chose the most aggressive move. "I'm gonna kill something!"
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$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOB...
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[go]$$W
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$$-.....a...
$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOB...
$$-.........
$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
( You could have chosen the more stable play at 'a'. )
White (to himself): "Maybe I can distract this homicidal maniac by giving him another stone to chase."
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$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
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[go]$$W
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$$-.....W...
$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
$$-.........
$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
Black(to himself): "This is getting crowded. First I must get some more room for me. Then I can resume attacking white."
$$W
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$$-..X..O...
$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
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[go]$$W
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$$-..X..O...
$$-..OXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
$$-.........
$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
White: "I'm not going to let you have an easy kill here either."
$$W
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$$-..X..O...
$$-.WOXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
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[go]$$W
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$$-..X..O...
$$-.WOXXOX..
$$-..XOOX...
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$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
Black: "Die, you scum, DIE!!!"
$$W
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$$-.OOXXOX..
$$-.BXOOX...
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[go]$$W
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$$-..X..O...
$$-.OOXXOX..
$$-.BXOOX...
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$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
White: "You must have overdosed on your anti-psychotic meds. I'll put you out of your misery."
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$$-..XW.O...
$$-.OOXXOX..
$$-.XXOOX...
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$$-.........
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[go]$$W
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$$-..XW.O...
$$-.OOXXOX..
$$-.XXOOX...
$$-.........
$$-.........
$$-.........[/go]
That is what pros are thinking when they play that joseki. It is a very aggressive sequence by both sides. ( Are you aware that you were playing one of the most aggressive versions? Or do you simply play it because everyone else is playing it? )
If you take the time to understand the meaning of each move that you play, you would see that you must play D18 or E18. Black's previous move was an attempt to get more space. One of those two moves would have been the natural follow up.